26 minutes ago, Shiba Gunichi said:Is how little I like Shahai by the end of it. And not in an "she's evil! EEEEEEEEVIL!" way, but rather in a "what did you think being a samurai entailed?" sort of way. She's a big ball of selfishness wrapped up in flimsy self-justifications. Reading this makes me understand her siblings' reluctance when Altansarnai suggested they make a dagger for her as well.
I have another perspective on her. She is an isolated and lonely teenage girl who now sees herself as hostage to what she sees as a hostile foreign power, and she is interpreting everything in the most negative light. She feels like she is betraying her Clan and family by sharing her family's knowledge with those who guard her Emperor. She feels distant from her half-siblings because she lacks Altansarnai's blood, despite Altansarnai seeing Shahai as one of them. She is falling victim to the idea that Daisetsu talked about "...what we believe is the truth becomes the truth." She believes she is a hostage not a guest so she acts like one. She believes she is betraying her clan to teach the Seppun so she refuses to teach. She believes her siblings do not see her as one of them so she acts like they do not treat her as one of them.