I came across something I felt was at odds in the last session we played.
I attempted to embrace the philosophy of strife as advised by people on this forum and even in the email from the designers, I didn't shy away from outburst. I actually quite enjoyed roleplaying it and found it liberating to not worry about it... that was, until I wanted to get into a duel.
Now as a Kakita Duelist I shouldn't be shying away from duels, however, in following the philosophy of strife I happened to be very close to outburst at the time. This is kind of an issue. Sure, outburst when embraced is actually quite fun, but getting a killing blow done against you in a duel because you didn't shy away from your outburst isn't.
Essentially playing a Kakita Duelist is actually entirely at odds with the desired philosophy of strife. Either I don't avoid outburst and get massacred in duels, or I do avoid outburst and therefore play against it's intended principle. I get the whole idea of strife is one of internal antagonism, this is fine when outburst is the outcome as that's just a temporary inconvenience/RP opportunity... but when the outcome is death or being forced to act entirely out of character...
Makes wonder if strife has a place in combat at all?