After being generally horrible at this game for close to four years,I finally won a small tournament.
Did it with a really good but non-meta list wich feels great. But then what? It's like I made it to the top of a ridiculous mountain.
For me the answer was to immediately stop worrying about it and get wierd!Next tournament I took an even more goofball list and made second place. But....man was that fun!
I haven't completely sorted it out yet but finally making a milestone takes so much self induced hand wringing and worry out of the equation and just lets a dude relax and have fun again.
But, I guess I just wanted to tell people to hang in there, it will happen eventually. And when it does...get silly!
You've earned it!