Made it to page 34 of 47 before I needed to post to get to bed. Saw the movie a few days ago now, and needed to digest/discuss with more ravenous SW fans than I. A lot of the comments have actually been helpful in making me like the movie more. So, perhaps surprisingly, thank you.
I got lucky. I tried hard after the "we're home" trailer to avoid spoilers. I went into the movie firmly believing that the old crew would be around for all three of the films.
Han's death was a gut punch. Or maybe a kick to the groin. Or both. It hurt.
For me, Harrison Ford played the part perfectly. Exquisitely delivered one-liners with a sprinkle of grandfatherly love and get-off-my-lawn. I was concerned after the "Chewie, we're home" trailer, but outside of that line, he was perfect Han.
The part that I have struggled with since watching the movie is that Han died in a horrifically post-modern and cynical way. Disney tells us that fathers cannot bring their children back from evil they have chosen. No matter the sacrifice, your child is lost. Your child can only consume you for their own evil desires.
As a father to a 2 year old, a toddler who loses control of his emotions and throws rage-tantrums similar to Kylo Ren's dark-side fueled slasher scene, this has been a difficult message to stomach. Almost enough to keep me from liking the movie at all. This same 2 year old, for whom I sacrificed being able to see a movie I craved watching for nearly two weeks, will destroy me. That's a tough message to swallow.
It is this very message that makes me hate Kylo with a deep, burning rage. He's a shrine to Western culture's "kid knows best" belief. And I want that shrine torn down.
That a pop-culture phenomenon of a movie could elicit such a reaction is my favorite part of the movie. I despise Kylo Ren to the point it clashes with my own morals. My emotions don't want to see him restored to the Light. I want him slain; dead and buried by Rey's hand. I want his crappy shuttle exploded over Jakku by Poe. I want him to have to clean Finn's toilets before going down the garbage chute to be eaten by some horrid monster.